Girl! You really get my soul and understand me! For that, I greatly appreciate you from the bottom of my heart.
In case you’re not sure what I’m talking about, I went onto my stories to talk about how sometimes on the other side of the camera, it’s not as glamorous as Influencers and Content Creator will have you to believe. I felt a level of responsibly to let you know that, although my life is really good, there are still things, I still have to work through on a day to day basis. That’s depression.
As much as it pains me to not be able to tell you the whole story because I have to protect the privacy of others, I will go a little deeper about my past and what no one really tells you about depression.
Full warning, I am going to share some uncomfortable details and if you’re just here for the fashion, I don’t blame you and will see you on the next post!
Different Faces Of Depression
I was born with a heart defect and I had to undergo two major surgery before I was 6 months old. Growing up, I was the center of attention and everyone was worried about me.
“She shouldn’t run.” “That’s too dangerous.”
As a child, I felt extremely confused because I thought I was just a normal kid and didn’t understand why I was living in a bubble.
Lucky for me, I never had to worry about medication, just a check up every two years. Still till this day, sometimes I don’t take it seriously. But here’s how my heart surgery aligns with my depression.
My parents got a divorce when I was 8 years old. My father wasn’t the best at money management and it left my family broken. I remember watching my parents fighting about money and me telling my mom, “If you let me die and didn’t spend the money on me, you wouldn’t be in this situation.” This is before I understood the concept of insurance. Can you believe this is coming from an eight year old?!
Compassion For Others
Ever since I was a child, I have been empathic. I truly take on the feelings of other like it’s my own. I see it both as a curse and a gift. Sometimes, the feeling is so strong, it could leave me feeling depress for days.
I really should take the time to write a book. My list of trauma can go on for days and when I feel comfortable, I’ll open up and share this list. There’s one trauma I think most can relate to and that is, being abandoned. Feeling lonely. Feeling like someone doesn’t love you. That’s how I felt after my parents’ divorce. I felt like I did something wrong and that I “deserved” to not be loved. This was a lot of emotions for a young eight year old and I still this trauma resurfaces from time to time.
Due to sexual abuse, feeling like no one loved me, and growing up feeling like the outcast, there were many times I attempted to take my life. Sometimes with depression, I feel, guilt, compassion, and trauma, individually, or all of them at once. With depression, I won’t be cured, just in constant remission. That’s really crappy to hear. This will never go away.
Looking Beyond A Shitty Day
I understand your hurt. I get that your pain comes and goes. I get that getting up each day can be a constant struggle. I’m not writing this blog post to ask for pity but to show you that strength comes in all different packages.
As a content creator, I am fortunate enough to express and truly just be my authentic self. I am able to channel my negative thoughts, self doubts, and pain into something positive. Simple and pretty things…get it.
I am constantly being challenged in my business and my personal life, which helps me stay focus to accomplish a goal. Although I still have really shitty days, I am living my best life. The reason? It’s because I know that I have a really good support system. My family, my friends, you.
Although I go through struggles, I know that these struggle are just little life lessons that can be shared to help others going through the same things.
After telling my story on IG, so many of you reached out to let me know that you understand my pain. I’m sorry that you feel the way you do and I’m happy that you know that you are not alone. I love that you felt comfortable enough to tell me your stories and let me know that you see all the good in your life. This is the reason why I do this blogging thing…you. Oh and it really makes me happy!
For those who do not know, Simple and Pretty Co. started out as a jewelry company before I turned it into a personal blog. It was a successful business but I had to close that chapter in my life because it was tied to a lot of trauma. Those wounds have been healed and I would like to bring you back to the past.
I’m going through some tough emotional times right now. Trauma is bubbling to the surface and I am taking on other’s hurt feelings (compassion). But I have so much to live for and want to take this negative energy and turn into something positive.
During my spare time, I have been making friendship bracelets because it takes me back to a time of innocence and happiness. Plus they scream summer! I remember making these bracelets to take up all the free time during summer break and giving it to a friend to find out it’s shy from fitting her wrist.
I promise you that the ones I have been making will fit.
Now… I know my OG Simple and Pretty Co. babes are wondering if I’m bringing the jewelry back and I’m happy to say…only for a little while. For the month of July and August, I will be making these friendship bracelets and available for you to snatch up. Part of the profit will be donated to American Foundation of Suicide Prevention. My goal is to band together to help those who don’t feel like they have nothing to live for.
On the last day of August, I will be sharing with you our proceeds being donated to the charity on my IG stories. If it wasn’t for programs like this, we might not be talking today.
Why Friendship Bracelets?
These bracelets represent knowing you are not alone in the world. If you or someone else is hurting, I want these bracelets to be a reminder that you’re not walking through life by yourself and that there is someone out there who does care. We are loosing too many great people to suicide and it’s leaving families as victims to a lifetime of what ifs and pain.
If you’re hurting and feel alone, please know that I will always do my best to be there for you. I am not a therapist. I am empathetic and can relate but you owe it to yourself to seek help. YOU ARE WORTH IT.
July 1st, the Friendship Bracelet Initiative will launch here on Simple and Pretty Co. 50% of the proceeds will be donated to the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention. My goal is to make as many as I can but these do take time. Thanks you for taking part of this journey with me. I’m excited for the next two months! xoxo Mandy Nicole
Every week, I’ll be releasing 5 new styles! These do take a good amount of time and all handmade by me, so please forgive me if I don’t reach the 5…but I’m up for the challenge!
Here are the first four styles for you to grab as part of the pre-launch crew! Each bracelet is $15 and it includes shipping! You can grab your today by clicking your favorite and it’ll take you through the purchasing process.
Alright… let’s stop the chatting and show the pretty stuff!
Thank you for your support! What color combinations are you hoping to see in this collection? Tell me below!3